You know those scenes in movies where the camera would be outside the window giving the audience an outsider’s view of the main character’s life? Often times, I think and see myself that way. Like I am watching my life as an outsider would. Weird noh? I guess, it comes from this age when most of my growing up years were reared by a lot of TV time–Batibot and Sesame Street, in the mornings, Eat Bulaga (when it used to be aired in Channel 2) sa tanghali, Agila, Anna Luna, Mr. Kupido, Ang TV (4:30 na! Ang TV na!) in the afternoons, Ula, and Grimms Fairy Tales, Ok ka Fairy Ko! in the evening (apparently I didn’t get as far as to watch other shows because of my early bedtime). Saturday nights were reserved for Mask Rider Black and Shaider, Takeshi’s Castle, and Crystal Maze. Sundays would favor me with Eh Kasi Bata!, Sa Linggo nAPO Sila, Ipaglaban Mo (remember Atty. Sison?–"ipaglalaban ko, hanggang sa dulo ng mundo!"), Tonight with Sharon, and Million Dollar Movies. Ah, those were the days.
Ironically, my mom would pray for me every night—"At sana po hindi na maadik ang anak ko sa TV." She even posted this poem in my room about the TV being the devil and all that. That totally creeped me out and delved my precious kiddie hours instead on reading Uncle Arthur’s Bedtime Stories, or playing with paper dolls, lutu-lutuan, bahay-bahayan, tinda-tindahan and every other imaginable pretend game a girl could concoct. I even pretend to fly by putting a mirror under my eyes. You put the mirror right side up thus reflecting the blue skies or whatever’s up there. Placing it beneath my eyes gave me the idea I was walking on clouds or on the ceiling. Oha–Superman na, Spiderman pa!
When I discovered the wonders of synthesizer, my playtime was put to a whole new dimension. May sound effects na ang play time ko. San ka pa? I would ride this bench with the finesse of a skilled motorcycler, turn on the electric fan in front of me, and put my toes on one key of the synthesizer. Vroooooooommmmmm!!!! (Code 88) Beep, beep! (Code 86). Or I would be a hunter in the forest (Codes 80-85 for all manners of forest sounds). Of course, I didn’t go anywhere far kase I didn’t have an extension cord. However, the best one I really liked was mountain climbing. I remember we had this green nylon folding bed that was really sturdy. I would put the other side of the bed on a higher plane and pretend to climb it from the lower side. For harder obstacles, I would put socks on so I would slide on every step. When I get tired of this, I would simply slide and think I was falling into a deep hole. At syempre, laging may sound effects yan.
As I got older, my pretending became more subtle. I don’t even have vivid memories of how TV influenced my teen years–except that I imagined Ariel Rivera to be my boyfriend, that Sharon Cuneta was my neighbor, that the Gwapings went to school with me, and that Patrick Garcia was my undying suitor. Indeed, I lived a star-studded life.
Now, I live in my own show. I do things and pretend to watch I do those things. I practice and memorize lines and say them like any skilled actress. I am even my own publicist. Hence this blog.
Someone get me to an asylum.